I am still pissed off.
And I feel like crying.
:(

Why? Because...things are just messed up and I hate it. I'm always the one who has to understand the situation and I'm the one who always ends up sacrificing. That's fine with me but can't things go my way even just for one freaking day?????????? Just one day. I just want one day where everything would just be perfect. No worries and stuff. But yeah...I guess this is my life.

I WANT TO CRY.

I'm pissed.

Ang Ewan Naming Field Trip...Bow.
Nangyari lahat toh nungNOVEMBER 22, 2006. Berdey ng aking pinakamamahal na si YSMAEL YRASTORZA YUZON.

Maaga akong nagising. Mga 3:30 ng umaga syempre naman kasi ayokong maiwan ng bus. Sino ba namang gusto dabah? At excuse...natulog ako. Nakatulog ako dahil hindi naman ako excited. Hmph. Napilitan lang naman ako...Sayang din naman kasi yung grade. So anyways mga 5:00 am na kami nakaalis ng bahay at mga five past five nasa school nakoh. Di naman ako nahirapan hanapin ang bus number seven. Pagakyat ko ng bus nandun na si Mica yung mga iba ko pang kaklase at yung mga taga Archimedes. Ayyyiiiii. Wala lang. Dahil Archi ang kasama ako ay isang mahinhing dalagang Pilipina ng araw na yon. Hahaha. Sabi dun sa letter 5:30 raw ang alis..Asa pa. 6:00 na kami umalis. Tapos ayun...nakakaawa yung tour guide dahil barado siya sa mga boys. Wahaha. Okay.

First Stop: IMAX. Hahaha. Mga 7 something kami nakarating. Kami kami pa lang tao nun. May short film kaming pinanood. T-rex something ata yun. Naaliw ako dahil 3d. Hahaha. Oo walang ganon sa bundok kaya naman aliw na aliw ako! Ang boring ng movie...Naman kasi..Pake ko sa mga dinosaurs dabah?

Second Stop: Wait. Saan nga ba yun..? Aaahh. Sa Malolos Bulacan. Sa Barasoain Church. ANG KOOORRRNNNIIIIII!!! Shemai. Bago kami pumunta ng Barasoain eh dumaan kami dun sa Casa Real churva wateber. PINAGLAKAD KAMI SA KATIRIKTIRIKAN NG ARAW. Now tell me..tama ba yun? Siyet buti sana kung INTERESTING yung mga pinakita nila samen kaso ANG BORING kahit yung lights and sounds effect chuva ba yun eh SUPER BORING din. Siyet talaga. Ang boring. Tapos bumalik na kami at naglunch sa bus. Ang shemai talaga. Pero ayus lang kasi malapit si Araw saken habang kumakaen ako. Wooshoo!!!

Third Stop: Pampanga. Yung courtesy call ni Mark Lapid. Naman. Pakeh ko sa kaniya yun lang pinuntahan namin dun. Dapat may parol making chuva pa kaming pupuntahan kaso ewan di na namin napuntahan. Kaya ayun nagpunta na lang kami sa Fourth and last stop namin....

Last Stop: MALL OF ASIA! Oo mga kaibigan ng field trip kami sa MOA. Nakakahiya mang aminin pero ganon talaga. Actually dito nga lang ako nag enjoy. Unang pinuntahan namin ay Timezone..At nakita namin dun si Sharlene San Pedro. Yung sa SCQ at Going Bulilit. At syempre nagpaicture ako. Ipopost ko yung pics soon pag di na ako tinatamad mag upload. Hehehe. Ang kyut niya!Ang puti at so pretty. Nandun din si Toni. Tsaka si Uma tsaka si Basty. Tapos ayun nagikot ikot lang kami ni Mica. Hai ang sakit sa paa. Tapos nung uwian eh akala pa namin eh naiwan kami ni Mica ng bus buti na lang nakita namin sina Kevin,Toptop,Meljune at Czedrick kasama si Sir Belandrez. Hahaha. Naaliw ako sa kanila ang kukulit.Tapos ayun pabalik balik kami kasi di namin alam kung nasana na ba talaga yung bus pero nakita din naman namin siya. Tapos ayun uwian na..


Mga past ten na siguro kami nakarating sa school. Tapos nagcommute pa kami ni Andox. Kamusta naman yun dabah? Parang limang taon kami bago nakasakay. Tapos ayun na nga..Kasabay namin sa jeep puro taga PCU tas pagdating sa bandang bayan konti na lang kami. Kasama na lang namin si Kit at si Benedict tsaka yung dalwang mama. NAkakatakot nga yung isa kasi mukhang hold upper..Hahaha. Kaya nung bumaba na sina Kit at Bentot eh natakot ako pero nakauwi naman kami ng matiwasay,,,Hehe. Tas ayun. Tulog pag uwi.

Nakakalungkot dahil ang korni ng aming lakbay aral aka field trip. Nakoh. Pramis. Nakakaasarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. This year's field trip has to be the most boring field trip I've ever been to. My 1300 pesos just got wasted.



HHHAAAIII...REFUND!!!!

Listening to: WITH A SMILE by ERASERHEADS
*..baby don't be scared*


I didn't know that there's still a few good beaus out there until today. And who would've thought that he's one of them. He doesn't look like the type. Aaah. That's where this saying comes in... Don't judge a book by its cover. Seriously...One of the sweetest thing that can happen to a girl is when a guy would cry for the girl...Because he's afraid to lose you. Because he wants you by his side. Because he loves you. Because you are his life. I honestly felt touched seeing the tears he shed even though it wasn't for me. Coz I haven't seen a guy cry in front of many people because of a girl...because of love. Now that's what you call a real man. Someone who's not afraid to show what he really feels. Girls if your beau's a certified gentleman, sweet, understanding, patient, God-fearing and if he loves you for you don't be stupid. Treasure him. Come on...Guys like that are very rare these days. Don't be stupid and let that one go coz you want to find the best one out there. Coz sometimes we tend to ditch what we've got to look for the best one not knowing that the one you let go was the best. We should also learn to take risks coz sometimes the outcome of something is opposite of what we think. We should learn how to wait and be patient for the right time to come. Coz everything happens for a reason. Just wait for the right time coz He just wants everything to be perfect for you and for me.

oOo

I got my report card today and my grades are still crappy although most of them are a few points higher than the previous ones. I know I can do better than that. I should stop disappointing myself and the people around me. Yeah.Lex. It's about time you realized that. NSTP was fun. It will always be as long as I'd see my Sun. If not then forget it! The things and the happenings around me got me all confused. I don't know what is what and which is which. I can't even tell apart the lies from the truths. That's a bad thing right? Everything seems to be out of control. I think that I should stop smiling as a response to what people say to me waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too often as it leads into misunderstanding. I should also stop playing stupid games as it leads to a disaster. I should also try and hang on and for everything to go pass me.


And yes that's proabably it.
Happy Birthday to Kuala Lumpur! Get it?
Ciao

Listening to: LOVE ISN'T by SAME SAME
*So true ang chorus ng kantang toh!*



Wala lang. Ang saya ng araw na toh! Pero weird eh.


Sasama ba ako sa field trip o hindi?


May NSTP bukas! I'm agsayted!

at kuhaan ng card bukas! Wahaha..

Gud luck sa akin.

Listening to: SILENT NIGHT by SPONGECOLA
*ulit! Dahil maganda siya!*


Nakakapeste talaga ang ibang tao sa mundo. Sila yung mga taong pinanganak upang gawing miserable ang buhay ng ibang tao. Yung bang gagawin ang lahat para masira ang napakaganda mong araw! Hainakoh...Basta napepeste ako sa kanya. Ano namang feeling niya ha??? Feeling naman niya ang ganda/gwapo niya. Siyet. ANG KAPAL. How freakin' ANNOYING. NAPAKA FEELING KAYA! NAKAKAASAR. GRRNESS SIYA! Ang bobo!

Hoi!!!!To You!
Stop assuming nga!
I don't ********* you!
Or anything. Eewness ha!
I hate you.

Hainakoh...Tama na nga!!!!!Iba naman!


So...okay naman ang buhay sa ngayon so you guys can erase that emo post that I did yesterday from you minds na! Okay na ko (?). Salamat sa kanya dahil pinatunayan niya saken na wala naman akong dapat na ikabahala dahil isa siyang walang kwentang tao! Kanina eh nakita ko ang Araw ng aking buhay. Shemai. Alam na ata niya na kras ko siya. Ngekz. Tagal na ata niyang alam eh!Actually...Buong fourth year ata eh alam na. Wahaha. Kamusta naman yun dabah? Hainakuuuuuuu. It's so... Bahala na. Goshness naman kasi. Bakit ko ba siya crush? Hahaha. Ang kiyut naman kasi! Tapos kanina nakita ko si Justin sa may canteen at himala dahil hindi niya kasama ang babae niya! Wahahahahaha! Hhmmphh! Magsama sila....Di joke lang lab ko yun si Justin!


Ngayon ko lang narealize na isa talaga akong dakilang tamad. Nakuha ko kasi yung grades ko kanina nung second year pa ko. Taena. Compare mo naman dude sa grades ko ngayon! Parang siyet! Alex is that you? As in ganon. Nakakagulat nga eh at the same time nakakapanghinayang dahil sinayang ko lang pala lahat ng pinaghirapan ko simula nung elem! Kasi ba man! Ang tataas ng grado ko dati compared ngayon...As in...NAKAKADIRI. Pramis. Di ako nage-exag! Parang angat naman kasi eh!Hmphness. Nakaka-disappoint to the highest level! Sheesh. So sad. Hainakoh Es...Ayusin mo na kasi yang buhay mo! Ano bang nangyari sayo? Simula ng lumipat ka sa Pisiyu eh naging tamad ka na?! Nakakamiss tuloy yung dating Es...Yung masipag magreview at enthusiastic towards sa studies niya. Pusang gala naman kasi!Hmhp...What happened to me ba?


Hai. Yun na nga lang muna dahil nakakatamad magtype weh! Wahaha. Tatapusin ko pa yung assignment ko sa Bible at aayusin ko pa yung ko sa favourite subject kong Physics....







Yes....I'm being a sarcastic beeeeeeeeetch!
CIAO M'DEARS!


PS.
Ito nga pala para kay "You"...

Waltz by Hale

I hate the way you are
So mean to me by far
The most frigid girl
That i have ever known

You speak loudly, but
When i’m not around
You’ll be just like them
So shallow and obnoxious

Please…
That’s enough (2x)
Please…

I’ve said this a million times before
And i’m sick
But all that i need
And all that i bleed
And all that i care for
Is you

You said that you’d call
But time you’ll be at home
But you never did
You said you did mean to

Now i’m outraged
As if we’re engaged
You made me realize
I’m just your alibi

Please…
That’s enough (2x)
Please…

I’ve said this a million times before
And i’m sick
But all that i need
And all that i bleed
And all that i care for
Is you

And all that i need
And all that i bleed
And all that i care for
Is you

I hate you..

Listening to: SILENT NIGHT by SPONGECOLA
*Christmas is in the air*




So...Things have been pretty blah lately. I found out something about someone which got me all confused and I just feel so stupid right now! I feel so stupid for believing all those lies even though I knew it all along! I know that it can never happen but I still wait for that time to come. How pathetic. You know what's the crappiest thing that can happen to a person...?

Wait for something or worse, someone that can never be yours.

Right? Coz it's like waiting for the sky to turn hot pink. Impossible isn't it? Exactly. Sometimes I just wish that everything would go my way so I won't have to go through all this crap...but everything happens for a reason...right? What I'm going through right now will probably teach me a lesson in some way. OMG. I'm turning into a drama queen!!!

o0o

Alam niyo ba na naiinis ako sa isang taong wala namang nagawang masama saken? I'm so mean! Basta sikreto na lang kung bakit pero yes..Naiinis ako sa kanya. Kahit na wala naman siyang ginagawa saken. Naiirita ako pag may nag babanggit ng napakaganda nyang pangalan. Nayayamot ako pag nakikita ko siya. Hai... I'm so pathetic. Ang sama ko. Lord...I'm sorry!

o0o

Yun na lang siguro muna. Kasi wala na akong maisip na mai-type eh. Pagbalik ko may bago ng layout! Pero di ko naman gawa! Kasi nakakatamad gumawa. Hehe.



Ciao m'dears!

Listening to: I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing by Aerosmith
*shemai.pangasar ba toh?*

Yes. I said that I was gonna make an entry about my Spongecola experience but I just can't be bothered.

• I hate posers. So,so,so much
• I hate it when things don't go my way.
• I hate waking up too early in the morning.
• I hate Pyhsics.
• I hate hot weather.
• I hate sluts/whores/hoes/skank.
• I hate rats.
• I hate pathetic losers.
• I hate him.

Ciao.

Spongecola Experience

Spongecola Experience

WARNING: LONG ENTRY AHEAD!

I can’t wait to go back to school. Wait…Did I just say that I can’t wait to go back to school? Yeah I think I did. I can’t wait to brag about my Spongecola experience. Gawd. Today…November 4, 2006. I, along with Kei, Khatt and Nade, went to SM Bacoor to watch Spongecola’s mini-concert thingy. Aaahhh! A dream come true! IT WAS AWESOME. I swear. They were great! I was screaming the whole night. Yael was so amazing. They took my breath away! I think they played eight or more songs. I dunno. I’m not sure. It’s a shame that Gosh wasn’t there though. Yael said he was on a Spiritual Retreat and I love Gosh for that! Chris had to play the bass instead of the drums! Haha he’s so talented. Yael said “Palakpakan po natin si Chris! Bukod po sa pagda-drums,kanta at sayaw ay marunong din siyang magbass! Si Chris po ang drummer namin kaso wala si Gosh kaya siya muna ang magbe-bass!”. After they performed I went to get an autograph. Actually everybody did… Goodness. I felt so freaking nervous while waiting and when it was my turn….Ewan. Na-starstruck na lang ako! Chris was so freaking nice! He’s so adorable! I swear. He was really nice to the fans and stuff. I said “ Hi Chris!” and he said “ Hi!” then flashed me a great big smile. Aaaww. I love him. He’s like one of the most cutest and talented drummers around. Armo was quiet. Suplado? I don’t think so. I reckon that he’s just not the type of jolly type of person if you know what I mean and he has gorgeous hair! Yael…Oh Yael..Oh Yael! Yael was nice as well. He was small! LOL. I reckon that he’s just a few inches taller than me. Well I know he is but he was HOT. HOT HOT HOT. When I gave him the CD he was like “Anong name mo?” Then I said. “Uhm…” *isip isip* “Alex!” Haha. It actually took me a few seconds to remember my name. Then he was like “Alex.” Aaaww. He’s a sweet guy. Prrramis. And I can tell that he really treasures their fans. I love him. Wahahaha. And I hate those security guards. They suck. Killjoys! Yes I do have pictures. Kinda disappointing coz we weren’t allowed to take pictures with them. We were only allowed to take pictures of them. How gay. Kei even fought with one of them! Kei and I still didn’t get enough so we waited for them at the backstage. When they finally came out I was like “Yael! Yael!” Hahaha I’m a crazy girl! I saw Chris going to their van and since there were too many people around Yael I approached Chris instead. AAAAAAHHHHHHHHH! I was so close to him. He was standing right in front of me! I was like “Chris! Chris! Pede papicture isalang! Pramis!” He was like “Okay. Last na ha.” Then he flashes me that great big smile again…BUT there were these two girls who went beside Chris to take a photo of them. Ugh bitches. I was the one who asked! It’s okay though. Their camera didn’t work! BLEH!!!! KARMA BABY! But now it sucks coz I don’t have a picture with Chris so that’s really sad! Then there comes Yael going towards the van. I didn’t get to talk to him coz the guards were well..gurading him from these “emo” kids (there were heaps of them during the show. they were everywhere! they were trying to make their own scence.) who were stalking him. But when he got inside the van he opened the window so I was like “YAEL! BAH-BYE!!!!!!!!!!” and he waved! Oh the joy!

Geez. Ngayon ko lang narealize na mukha pala akong eng eng kanina. Hahahaha. Die-hard na die-hard. Chris probably thought that I was mental. Well can’t blame him. Haha. *Sighs*. I had a fun day. Really. The next time they have a gig here in Cavite. Imma watch them again! And I really hope that Gosh wouldn’t be away. And I’m not gonna do stupid, crazy things that might scare them off! Hahaha. t

Ciao!